Monday, April 25, 2016

Egg moon

April's full moon is called the egg moon, or the seed moon, or the sprouting grass moon. The full moon that just passed was also a pink moon. Emma & I had plans to make a cute gif for it, but it turns out cute doesn't come easy, so we made you a moon-tinged-with-blood gif instead.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Be prepared

It's time for AWP again, with all the ups & downs that that entails.

There are no shortage of things to do, but if yr going to be around & you want to catch up w me, I'll mostly be at the bookfair as usual, hanging around the Draft (339) & Black Ocean (1547, 1549) tables or wandering around in search of the many amazing books that are being released this month.

I will likely have whiskey & Star Realms on me, in case you need either of those things.

I'm doing two readings: one for DoubleCross Thursday at 7 at LACA (followed by much dancing at the afterparty for the Black Ocean reading at the Ace) & one for Black Ocean Saturday at 8 at Alias Books (come early if you wanna be sure to get in).

See you soon!

Friday, March 25, 2016

Visceral & tactile

Yesterday's review reminded me that I'd been remiss about posting a previous review of At Night by Rob Mclennan, an incredibly prolific reviewer, who speaks to how the poems, which range from "realistic stories to internal monologues to dreamscapes and folk tales, all presented as part of an examination of an all-encompassing dark" are "visceral and tactile."

In light of this, I've now got an extra page for reviews of the book, as well as interviews & essays I've done, which will hopefully help me keep better track of them!

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Night that is always night

"A world generated by mythos is an invulnerable world. A thick world. A brought world. A presence or an inside of presence or an enveloping, unrelenting, always presence that appears to be an inside, and invites people inside, because it knows the only thing that matters is already inside the story. Mythos knows that people only get slight clues about knowing. And sometimes the people embrace what they think they will eventually discover once they are inside the mythos’ thick presence."

Yesterday an intense review of At Night went up on The Rumpus, extricating the mythos from the mythology of the book, as well as considering the circumstances & exploration of suffering within it.

According to Kent, the book begins with suffering, the suffering is endless, your questions will remain unanswered, but that is precisely what you will be drawn to.

I can't say he's wrong.

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Things are starting to bloom & I am one of them

Today it's the spring equinox, which means it's time to build an altar & connect the self with the season.

{Ostara altar}
The solstice brings about another chance at balance, with the light & dark even with each other, though now we enter the time where light gains a little victory every day. This is great for me because light is energy & happiness & already that is starting to show.

Flowers are going wild everywhere right now, with bulbs, bushes, & trees coloring everything I see. This time reminds me of the brevity of abundance & beauty, how fleeting it can be, even at it height. During this time I try to keep that in mind, while still calling all that brief, overwhelming beauty my way. 

I carved the rune for harvest into my candle this year, because I really want to see the effects of my work, to reap what I've sown, & to prepare a space for the blessings I may someday receive. I hope it's the same for you -- may the fruits of yr efforts return to you multiplied!

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Marching on

February flew by in a strange mix of days spent indoors & days spent traveling. I had a lot of game nights, walked a candlelight vigil for a bridge, saw a festival of lights & watched all the spring flowers start to bloom. I also managed to find one place that I thought was right for me & submit. It might not seem like a lot, but I'm pretty happy about it.  

I hope you found somewhere that was right for you & sent, but if not (or if you're now on a roll), here are some more options:

Slope Editions Book Prize {Mar 15} 
H_NGM_N Books {Mar 15}
Black Lawrence Press – Hudson Prize {Mar 31}

Boaat Chapbook Contest {Mar 15}
CutBank Chapbook Contest {Mar 15}
Sundress Chapbook Contest {Mar 31}
Omnidawn Poetry Chapbook Contest {Apr 18}

Gigantic Sequins {Mar 31}
jubilat {Apr 1}
Horse Less Review {now}
Gulf Coast Online Exclusives {year round}
Cartridge Lit {year round}

Good luck!

Sunday, February 21, 2016

Sunday options

If you are in the Portland area, you should go by any of the Powell's stores, where they are having their friends & family sale for 30% off anything in store. Right?

But if you are in Seattle you should come to the Fred Wildlife Refuge to hear Willie Fitzgerald, Feliz Lucia Molina & myself read. The new but already spectacular Monorail Reading Series is hosting us tonight at 7, so we hope to see you at 6:30 so you can get a drink w us before things get going.

Monday, February 8, 2016


Emma & I can't get enough of our little buddy Medjed! We made a little animation to celebrate his awesomeness!
I mean, right?

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Tiny month, tiny list

Just a few places you might want to send work to during this longest of shortest months.

Ahsahta Press {Mar 1}

Tupelo Press {Feb 29}

FENCE {Feb 4}
Jenny {Feb 7}
The Collapsar {Feb 15}
Phantom {Feb 23} {poets without a full-length}
Tin House {Feb 28}
Gulf Coast {Mar 1}
Black Warrior Review {Mar 1}
TYPO – Poetry and Disability Issue {Mar 1}

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Everything you do counts

In the end I'm so glad I sent to the Cartridge Lit chapbook contest, even though it meant being mocked by the friends who were at my house waiting on the holiday dinner (of course, as soon as I explained my abysmal send-out rate for the year, they totally understood). I didn't win -- that honor went to Jane Childs -- but I was a runner up, along with pal & fellow UofA MFAer Jamison Crabtree, & Cartridge Lit is going to publish both of our chapbooks.

I can't think of a better home for Everything makes a noise when it reveals itself, a chapbook of little prose poems I wrote about Silent Hill, than Cartridge Lit. The site is dedicated to writing about video games & all the chapbooks they have done so far have been really textured & interactive.

Although it won't be out before the end of the year, I'm still excited to see what they'll do with it. I'm hoping for something a little meandering, like an obscured cyoa that pushes readers towards one path to the end, rather than being able to see the entire thing in one go.

However it comes out, it's nice to feel a single action's effects rippling out into the new year.

Sunday, January 31, 2016

Take it back

I had every hope of submitting like my old self this month. On the 15th I said no to friends (unheard of) in order to submit to Rattle & Sixth Finch, opened my comp to find it frozen, tried to restart only to have it turn itself off, & then my HD basically imploded.

After a full weekend attempting to copy/rebuild/repartition/remount the hd, the computer worked but everything was gone. I'm sh*t at backing things up, so the last time I saved anything was in August...of 2014. It turned out I had saved the last 12 documents I was working on in Drive, but that's not much.

I missed 2 of my deadlines right off the bat -- of course it's partially my fault for waiting till the last day, but I could not have expected that kind of setback. My files are now all over the place in no particular arrangement & I lost the file that tracks all my submissions & previously published poems.

When I finally sat down to submit to Diode I found out I'd gotten the date wrong -- submissions were due the (fateful) 15th, so I couldn't even do that. I hunted around for another place to send a chapbook & then realized maybe I shouldn't be looking for a place to send something just to fulfill a promise to myself. Maybe I shld really be looking for where I belong.

So I am officially letting myself off the hook for whatever I said I'd do this month & trying again next month with a new goal: find a place I really love & submit there.

Wednesday, January 27, 2016


One day about a year ago, I stumbled onto an article about an obscure Egyptian god who was having a bit of a revival after his image was shown at a museum in Japan. When you see the original artwork, it looks a bit like a time-traveler is trolling you -- he's just a sheet with eyes & legs. He's like the original prototype for a ghost. 

I obviously squealed & immediately searched for an adorable little figurine or something else that I could get. I couldn't believe there wasn't really anything available. Obviously I needed to change that.
& voila!
Medjed! His adorableness kind of belies his brutality -- he was an invisible god who meted out punishment by smiting people with his eyes. & apparently he was thought of a bit like a bodily incarnation of social ethics!
The Medjed pin is the second in the line for It Will Be Known to Us, my little collab project w Emma Trithart. We're so dang proud of this guy & happy to have him our our lapel!

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

We can always do better

In taking stock of my year, I realized that I'm great at sharing places that are open for submissions, but not very good at actually submitting to them. It turns out I only submitted one poem (in Jan) & responded to 3 solicitations in all of 2015.

That is a really significant decline from past years & I don't feel very good about it. I tried to start to remedy that as best I could by sending out a chapbook submission on New Years Eve (with guests in the house, while I waited for dinner to finish cooking), but I'm committed to doing better this year from the very start.

Do I really need a resolution to get me to do more of the thing I love? Apparently.

So here we go: this month I will send out one chapbook submission & three poetry submissions! Want to play along? Here's some options for you.

Yes Yes Books {Pamet River Prize, 1st or 2nd book, women & gender-queer authors, Feb 1}

Big Lucks {Best Prize, POC, Jan 15}

Rattle {Jan 15}​
Diode Editions Chapbook Contest {Jan 15}

Yes Yes Books {Feb 1}

w/ deadlines:
Duende {Jan 8}
Sixth Finch {Jan 15} 

FENCE {Feb 4}
Gulf Coast {Mar 1}

smoking glue gun
The Volta  

Witch Craft Magazine

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Unexpected glories

I can honestly say I never expected to be listed as one of Powell's Staff's top 5 favorite books of 2015, & yet, there I am. At Night is listed as one of Kevin Sampsell's top 5 recommended books from this year!

Looking over the list reminded me that I still need to read The Buried Giant by Kazuo Ishiguro & The First Bad Man by Miranda July, & I also found a book apparently I have to read, as it was on a lot of the staff's lists: Our Souls at Night by Kent Haruf. (Also pretty interested in Preserving the Japanese Way by Nancy Singleton Hachisu.)

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

It's been as dark as it will ever be

Today is the first day of winter. The day will have one more second of light than yesterday. It will go on this way until the days seem endless.

This is how change happens: fractionally. & so I too want to change just a little at a time. 
Yesterday I built a very simple Yule altar, in hopes of a very simple season ahead. I carved the rune for travel into my little homemade walnut shell candle, in hopes that I could relocated my priorities, that I could see the right path for myself & take it.

I want to give myself less as a present this year. I want to clear out the excesses I've accumulated; want to say yes to less; to carve out more time for the things I want to do; to let boredom creep back into my life, since that is when I do my most creative thinking.

& little by little, one tiny decision at a time, I know I can have it.  

Thursday, December 17, 2015


Last week Harriet rounded up three of The Best Best Poetry of 2015 Lists of the Week, and At Night was sitting pretty on to two of them!

1) Entropy's Best of 2015: Best Poetry Books & Collections
2) LitHub’s 30 Must-Read Poetry Debuts From 2015

&, um, did I just get quoted on the Poetry Foundation's blog?


Monday, December 14, 2015

Why not

It's been a while since I did one of these, but now the time is right:

Sunday, December 6, 2015

Three is a lucky number

Apparently I've got a solid theme of threes going on in my life, as my book was a top 10 SPD bestseller for a third time this year! 

This is an amazing & joyful fact & I adore everyone who bought a copy & made it possible!

Heaps of blessings on everyone who got At Night & made this possible, & also on all poetry readers in general.

Sunday, November 29, 2015

three in a row

One of my favorite things about video night was when a block of songs would come on that shared a theme -- a trilogy of hip hop, or black & white, or ethereal goth, or '80s pop, or whatever.

A week ago I watched this Rose McGowan video at the newly revamped (tho less frequent) video night at Beulah & it immediately brought to mind two other videos, so here's my own little video block (maybe actually connected under the umbrella of "eyebrows").

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

I want everything I want

When Emma drew this illustration for Every day I learn to survive the day, & then the day is over, I just knew she was a representative of me. It's hard to explain, but easy to feel. I made her my avi, but I wanted more -- I wanted her to be a real object I could carry around with me. I've been pretty caught up in the rush of enamel pins that are having such a resurgence, & it hit me that this would make a perfect pin, & fulfill so many of my dreams at once. & so it was.

This brutal beauty will be hanging out on my coat all winter. Maybe you need a little strength as well. Friday the 13th she launches into the world. Find her if you want her.

As a very crazy bonus, if you are currently a Black Ocean 2015 Subscriber, not only do you get all the books for $10 & free shipping, you also get one of these ladies with your December books. If you want to be a subscriber for this years books, you can still do that. & get a pin. For free.

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Who will replace you

During my time at MFA, I suffered a heartbreak which left me "not writing" for pretty much an entire semester. I put that in quotes because I don't think I've ever truly stopped writing, though I have stopped noticing the changing ways in which I write. In this case, it was in bitter little fragments jotted down on random index cards I always had lying around.

So in spite of all the times I couldn't turn in a packet, I still managed to build a manuscript culled from all the little stabs of writing, & turned in a tiny book of tiny, brutal poems. Minuscule hardly even begins to describe them, some of which were merely a title. I carry on this tradition even now, thanks to Twitter, which is designed perfectly for this kind of writing.

The brevity of these poems lend themselves to single panel animations pretty well, & Emma & I have been working together to make them into little self-contained events. We had a lot of luck making them into a larger narrative as well as letting them stand alone. But one level of atmosphere that was missing was sound.

In order to get a fuller effect, I wanted to make a gif with sound (which someone pointed out to me was "just a movie") & thanks to Emma & Ryan & I working together, we managed to make this, just in time for Halloween:


I'm super happy about how it turned out & already have big plans for the next one!

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Try again

I recently saw a map of favorite Halloween candy per state & candy corn came in at the top of OR's list. I totally believe this, because candy corn is actually really good.

I know that it gets a pretty bad rap, although I'm not sure why, because I love them. But before you buy that bag just to fill a glass hurricane enough to anchor a candle for a seasonal display, try this trail mix suggested by Emma!

Spoiler alert: it's candy corn plus peanuts. Everyone I've served it to has loved it -- even people who don't really like candy corn. 
If you want to see even more cute drawings of these two, check out Emma's post about it, but the quick version is you put equal amounts of peanuts & candy corn in a bowl & voila! Pumpkin carving party snacks. (Yes, you will be having this at my pumpking carving party. What.)

Monday, October 26, 2015

Old habits die hard

I can tell I've slipped back into my bad habits again, last minute-ing everything in a wild panicky flurry, but anything that gets done is a victory, so here we go:

Full length:
Tampa Review {Oct 31}
Academy of American Poets {first book, Nov 1}
Fordham University Press {don't know anything about this, but CD Wright's the judge, so..., Nov 7}
Yale Series of Younger Poets {first book, Nov 15, I dare anyone I know to win this. Please.} {Also, my favorite part about the guidelines is that yr manuscript must be 48-64 pages. Is this the new length of a book of poetry?}
Nightboat Books {Nov 15}

Black Lawrence {Oct 31}
Little Red Leaves {Oct 31}
Tupelo Press {CD Wright is the judge of this too!, Oct 31}
Finishing Line {Oct 31}
Sixth Finch {Nov 3}

I'm finding it hard to keep up with all the journals lately -- too many is a good thing, but it's still too many -- but pretty much any place you like is open right now, so pick 5 & send!

Monday, October 19, 2015

People want you to read my book

& I am one of those people.

I'm pleased as punch that At Night was tagged as recommended reading (along with a bunch of other haunting books that I have just ordered) over at Story Animal.

​In case you're not sure what the book's all about, or if you'll like it, you can check out reviews by Sonya Vatomsky in Fruita Pulp​ & Jess Schnabel for the Bloodmilk Book Club​, as well as the mini-review by Kristen Evans in her recommendation!

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

A what
But really, if I can't actually become a demon for Halloween I need someone to help me be a Midinette.

Monday, October 12, 2015


I love collaborations of all sorts, but lately I've been over the moon (no pun intended) about working together with Emma Trithart on animated, illustrated poems. We worked together on the day of the recent Super Blood Moon Eclipse to make this foreboding sweetie in celebration:
This wasn't our first foray into gif poems, but I've apparently been so remiss that I didn't even mention when our first collaboration came out as one of Poor Claudia's 10 Sources
It's a stark little narrative called Every day I learn to survive the day & then the day is over, which has actually spurred us into our next big undertaking, which I'm hoping to be able to tell you about soon!

Monday, October 5, 2015

Remove, reappear

There are things I've wanted to say, but I've held back, or I haven't figured out how to say them, or the climate has been so wrong it didn't seem worthwhile. & so I've stayed away.

This has always been my answer: remove. Move backwards until you can move forward. Or move at all.

The bad news is that makes a lot of silence here. The good news is it looks like I'm moving again!

I've got a lot to catch up on, but I'll start with this: At Night has made it back into the top 10 books on SPD's poetry bestsellers list!

I love thinking of my book out there on the shelves of bookstores across the country, just waiting to be found by the right person, or imagining them in the hands & homes of so many friends & strangers.

If you don't have the book already & want it, or have the book but want a copy to share with a friend, SPD is offering it for 40% off using the code SPELLBOUND during their Season of the Witch sale. You've got until Nov 1, but why wait?

Move while you can.

Monday, August 24, 2015

Airing forever

A while ago I read a handful of poems & talked about At Night with Selina Scheumann for KMSU's Weekly Reader & now the podcast of the aired interview is up on the site.

I'm pretty sure they cut a whole bunch of giggles (though you can still hear a few laughs that escaped the editing process), because I remember having a lot of fun doing this & Selina was so sweet.

It was a strange feeling to be sitting at my dining room table, staring into my kitchen, talking into the open air, hoping I was actually answering the questions that were being asked from so far away. Now it's strange to think anyone at any time can sit in on our little chat & have me read to them. 

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

So, what? You sold 10 copies?

My book is performing tiny miracles without me: it made it all the way up to #7 on SPD's Bestseller List!

I can't say that everyone who heard the news understood its significance, but if you're a writer & yr on a small press & yr reading this, you probably do!

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

The future determines the past

There is going to be an extra second added to our night tonight & it got me thinking about technology & time & I realized I'd been keeping a bunch of tabs open that fit, so I finally put together another TinyLetter.

It's full of ancient computers & clocks, the dreams of computers & their take on the meaning of life, the pitfalls of uploading our consciousness to the internet or linking our consciousness' together, & the fact that we now know the future determines the past.

Bonus link! Tonight is the bright return of the "Star of Bethlehem" after 2000 years.